As I soak luxuriously in the tub to relax after a recent move, I find myself craving companionship. My friend and I use to meet for coffee to discuss our newest Ah Ha moments. Yet, I have the quiet house all to myself as my husband is at work and my children at school. Our dog and cat are sleeping nearby and as I soak I can hear the crashing of the waves coming to rest on the sandy beach of the Chesapeake Bay. A vision of a coin came to me and I heard the words…two sides of the same coin. It was a reference for how I was feeling. Loving my solitude st the same time wanting companionship. This began the unfolding and birth to “Two sides to the Same Coin” (co-in).
The thought occurred to me that no matter how much we think we are alone, we never truly are. I may believe that the thought of this story was my own creation, but even our thoughts are something that is given to us. My Guardian Angel was letting me know that and so I decided to have a little chat with her. So, I put the tea pot on and began to muse a bit, thinking how odd it is that our Guardian Angels have been with us since the time of our conception, yet, we very rarely ever communicate with them.
“Two sides of the same coin” was birthed from this communion with my Guardian Angel (communicate in unison). To me, life is very symbolic and I allow this symbolism to guide me and offer me wisdom whenever it shows up in my life. Whether in nature, in the grocery store, bumper stickers or on billboards, and just pretty much everywhere. It is a rather fun way that I allow life/spirit to guide me. It is very surprising and magical at times. Everything is symbolic. This, I am now realizing, is what brings out my passion to write.
The way the coin presents itself when you look at it, has a head of a presidential/queen figure on one side and on the other is usually depicted as a bird, animal or nature. To me the symbolism of the head represents man, the ego, the mind, thought and logic. The tail or the opposite side represents our animal nature, freedom, liberation, nourishment, higher thought and spirit.
Each side of this coin has a story, a story that we can all relate to if given the moment for some introspection. When, I apply this coin to my life and how it relates to me, I see that in the first half of my life I lived from one side of the coin. Heads, that is. My whole life I’ve operated on everything that has been given to me and that has been told to me. Taking everything upon face value and believing it to be truth, my truth. Living in the logical mind came so natural as if robotic and this in turn created my daily experience and the world in which I lived. Unbeknownst to me, everyone else’s truth was mine. I was creating a world around me upon someone else’s truth. Their fears, their perceptions, their wisdom and their belief system. I never really asked myself if any of it resonated or felt true to me. This left me at some point feeling very broken, not knowing who I was, what my purpose was for living, not sure I even wanted to remain living in this way, and literally very empty.
I am not sure when the coined flipped or the breakdown began. Maybe, at the birth of my children something started to give way. A little awareness here and there. It was a constant yo-yo from my thoughts to my feelings and I felt at times I was losing my mind. In a sense, that is exactly what was happening as I was de-programming myself and now realize what a gift it is to lose your mind! LOL! I want to express to you that I write not from a place of right or wrong, but as you will see, one of opposites, the life of duality, the blessing and knowledge gained that each side of the coin brings. That I am now learning to write my new life story on blank pages with an open heart.
Living the second half of my life represents spirit, nourishment, and my connection to nature. Recognizing the Divine spirit in all things has been the living force that has liberated me. Everything being connected, every thought, word and deed having an effect on each other. By becoming responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, I have set myself free from any limiting thoughts created by another. I am learning to stand in my own truth and in my own power. No one can give that to you, you can only gift that to yourself. You will soon realize that you are your own gift to yourself and to humanity and to all life. Recognizing that the first half of my life taught me humility, to forgive myself and to fully embrace and love myself without exception. Just as the Divine…without judgment.
Yet, there is another aspect to this coin, a secret one, a hidden one, an aspect that is neither heads nor tails, but one that is the middle. The part that makes the two, one. The part that binds the two, the heart of it all. Putting differences aside and becoming united. Where spirit and mind come together and let the heart take lead. For like I said above, everything is dependent upon the other. Living the life in the mind leads to suffering, living totally in the spirit realm will leave you aloof and ungrounded, while living in the middle, in the heart, leads you to living in union with God and all things. Grounding spirit through our vessel with both feet on the ground and seeing that first and foremost we are spirit in human form. At that point, it doesn’t matter how you see God or how others see God. It doesn’t matter what color skin you have or what country you live in. It doesn’t matter the possessions you have or how much wealth you have, it doesn’t matter how physically beautiful or ugly you perceive something is, because here and only here in your heart, is where your truth and abundance resides. In total acceptance of all people places and things, you cannot separate it because it’s all connected. Just like the infinity symbol and just like the coin.
In my truth, there are no sides…it’s a matter of perspective. It is my hope that you will never look at the coin the same way ever again. I hope that when you gaze upon it as you hold it in your hand, you will know that you are truly and infinitely abundant. That the person depicted on this coin does not rule you or your heart unless you allow it. That what you hold within your own hand is your own fate. The ability to create your own liberation from any perceived lack or limitation. That there is more wealth in a coin than just its material worth, that your foundation was not built on it but, linked through creation. Instead, think of it as if you hold your heart and the hearts of all those who it has touched in your hand and say a prayer of love and thanksgiving. That everything is connected, even us to one another, just like two sides of the same coin. It is all ONE.
Abundantly yours,
Lisa